About this Retreat
With over 15 years of experience and close to 100 ceremonies, I walk this path with deep reverence for the healing power of sacred plant medicines. As a facilitator, I hold space rooted in the belief that we are the medicine - each of us carries the wisdom and capacity to heal from within.
Ayahuasca, San Pedro, and psilocybin are not cures, but powerful guides helping us reconnect with our truth, our wholeness, and our path home.
In every ceremony, I honor the unique journey of each participant, offering guidance, safety, and presence without imposing direction. My role is to support that listening, to help create the conditions where real transformation can emerge.
This work is not about escape or transcendence, It’s a return to authenticity.
I have been trained by ICEERS on harm reduction - a training to improve safety during and after psychededelics ceremonies
My journey with Ayahuasca began in 2014, during a time when my life had come to a standstill. I was searching for deep transformation and this beautiful medicine set that process in motion. What followed were powerful ceremonies that helped me release pain, reconnect with my body, gain insight into old patterns, and experience expanded states of consciousness, unity, and love. I rediscovered my joy for life, which became the foundation for further growth. Life can still be challenging, and I still stumble at times - but I now stand on solid ground and live from connection and gratitude.
I have participated in over 50 ceremonies and completed the Ayahuasca facilitator training at Proceswerk in Groningen (2018). I have also extensively explored magic mushrooms, truffles, San Pedro, LSD, and Bufo - each offering its own unique experience and wisdom. Alongside guiding sessions, I work as a breathwork coach and massage therapist, and I’m currently in the final year of a 3-year training in systemic work, Transactional Analysis, and NLP.
It’s deeply humbling and fulfilling to create safe spaces for people to surrender to these powerful, magical medicines, and to walk alongside them for a short stretch of their life path. I believe each journey with the plants contributes to a more loving world.
Details of this retreat
Through the sacred and intentional use of 5-MeO-DMT (synthetic bufo), we guide profound journeys into pure consciousness, dissolving the ego and revealing boundless unity.
5-MeO-DMT is one of the most powerful psychoactive substances known. It occurs naturally in several plants and in the venom of the Bufo Alvarius toad, and can also be produced synthetically. Unlike classical psychedelics such as psilocybin or LSD, 5-MeO-DMT does not typically produce vivid visual experiences. Instead, it is known for inducing an intense, short-lasting state of ego dissolution - a profound sense of merging with everything, often described as an experience of pure consciousness. The effects come on within seconds and usually last between 10 to 30 minutes. Because of its extraordinary intensity, 5-MeO-DMT should be approached with great care, proper preparation, and experienced guidance.
Current research into 5-MeO-DMT highlights its potential to treat mental health conditions, such as depression, anxiety, ptsd and addictions.
During this 2-day retreat you'll get to experience 2 full 5-MeO-DMT sessions, 2 5-MeO-DMT vape sessions and a holotropic breath session. The experience with the vape pen is milder (although it can be profound!) and can help you deepen/lengthen the earlier session.
The retreat will be held at a beautiful retreat center on the countryside near Amsterdam. The old farmhouse, lovingly renovated, features a large ceremony space, a big garden with open view, 2.5 bedrooms with 20 beds, some separated by curtains or room dividers, 3 showers and toilets. Bed linen and towels are provided. For those who prefer a private bedroom, the centre offers 2 tiny houses on the property for €70 per night.
The surroundings are perfectly suited for a peaceful walk in the countryside.
Group size will be maximum 6 to ensure everyone gets full attention and support.
We are experienced guides who ensure a safe space and loving support so that you can surrender to what appears in your journey. We facilitate magic, spiritual, consciousness expanding experiences grounded in reality. We advise and support, hold the space, provide the set and the setting. The journey inward you make yourself. We trust in the power of the psychedelic medicines and in everyone’s self-healing ability. Of course we are fully present during your journey.
In addition, we provide a thorough intake procedure inc intake video call and a followup call a week after the session.
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