Broadacres, Sandton, South Africa
Up to 2 in group
5 Days Package (4 nights)
About this Retreat
I have devoted much of my life to the mystery and medicine of Darkness, not as absence, but as presence, a sacred vessel where masks fall away and the essential self is revealed.
My own path has taken me through 10, 14, and 21-day Darkness Retreats, as well as guiding close to a hundred retreatants from across the world; shamans, sangomas, medicine facilitators, doctors, coaches, creatives, leaders, and absolute beginners taking their first steps into meditation.
I am an Integral Master Coach™ with a background in psychology, and my lived experience includes both mystical devotion since childhood and the raw, life-threatening crises of inner darkness. These extremes shape the way I hold space: with care, precision, and reverence for every human who steps into the unknown.
My spiritual journey began in traditional Christianity and has expanded into an embrace of the great mystery across religions and paths, a tantric love of life that welcomes all.
I have lived and practiced at Hridaya Yoga Retreat Centre in France, and I continue to walk the edge of truth, curiosity, and the deepest reaches of my known innerverse.
I am also a mother of three grown children, grounded in the ordinary beauty and hardship of human life. What I offer is not theory, but lived practice.
Holding Darkness Retreats is my service and my devotion.
I honour each guest as they are, weary, seeking, or courageous enough to face themselves in full.
The space itself is a sacred portal, between worlds, where suffering softens, seekers are met, and tired humans find renewal.
Details of this retreat
From the moment you arrive, the pace begins to soften. A private room holds you with simplicity and care: bed, bathroom, fresh air, nourishing meals.
Everything you need is here, and nothing unnecessary.
When the door closes and the light fades, you enter complete darkness.
At first, it may feel unfamiliar, but soon, distractions dissolve, and only essence remains - what is true, what is real, and what has been waiting.
In this stillness, breakthroughs often come. Creatives find flow where blocks once lived.
The overwhelmed discover calm, and decisions long delayed suddenly find clarity.
Many feel their nervous system reset, stillness replacing anxiety, resilience returning.
The experience is unique to each guest.
For some, darkness offers deep, restorative rest. For others, it invites emotions to be felt and gently released. Many leave with renewed clarity and strength, ready to meet life from a steadier place.
Meals arrive quietly through a hatch, supporting your rhythm. Without clocks, screens, or outside noise, time itself shifts. You may rest, move, or simply be.
Nothing is required - only the invitation to listen more deeply than ever before.
Darkness has always been a gateway for shamans, mystics, and seekers. In its depths, visions rise, dreams clarify, and the unseen layers of self reveal their medicine.
It is a womb of unmaking and remaking, where healing and insight emerge not by striving, but by surrendering to the unknown.
When you emerge, the change is unmistakable. Guests describe feeling lighter, clearer, and more connected.
They carry home not just rest, but fresh energy, clarity, and a presence that endures.
This is not escape. It is return.