About this Retreat
My name is Noah, and I'm here to be your guide and hold space for your deep healing, integration, and transformation. I am trained as a coach and a counsellor, and I have experience supporting people from a wide variety of backgrounds, each bringing their own stories and unique situations. I am also a musician, and I weave live sound and music into my sessions to support the inner process.
My work is grounded in a holistic approach, because I believe that everything within us is interconnected. Over the years, I’ve dedicated myself to studying the inner world from many angles. I completed a six-month intensive training in parts work with teachers such as Richard Schwartz, Amanda Blake, Marcella Cox, Steve March, and Loch Kelly, learning to view our inner parts through the lenses of IFS, neurobiology, somatics, and grounded mindfulness.
I also studied for two years at the Academy of Coaching and Counselling in the Netherlands, where I deepened my understanding of relationships, trauma, grief, career, and personal wellbeing. My focus naturally gravitated toward relationships, trauma, and grief work, which now form an important part of my practice.
Alongside this, I’ve explored the deeper, often hidden layers of the psyche through a six-month intensive with Nemanja Sonero on shadow work and alchemising masculinity, as well as a weekend training in shadow constellations with Nir Esterman, blending elements of shadow work and family constellations. These teachings continue to shape the way I support people in meeting the parts of themselves that are usually unseen.
And woven through all of this is music. I’ve been a musician my whole life, using sound as a way to explore, express, and understand my own inner landscape. In recent years, I’ve also been guiding others through psychedelic inner journeys with intuitive music, voice, and sound—supporting people in moments when they are most open, vulnerable, and ready for transformation.
I understand how life can sometimes leave us feeling lost, broken, or shaken, especially after a big change—whether it arrives suddenly or is something we believed we were ready for. My role is to help you meet these moments with presence, clarity, and compassion, so you can come home to yourself again.
Details of this retreat
Welcome brother/sister,
If you are experiencing the pain of a grief, I fully empathise with you. Even though we all experience it differently, I have been there myself and know how deeply painful and disorienting it can be.
When we experience grief, we may cycle through any of these five phases: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance.
These phases are not necessarily linear. We may find that we are stuck in one or two phases, while skipping over others. We may find acceptance, then suddenly return to anger, or depression for example. This may not be intentional, but a way your system has "cleverly" decided to protect you from feeling deeper, painful emotions. This happens out of fear, when the system fears that you are already carrying too much, and any more would overwhelm it.
However, by clamping down, pushing away, ignoring or avoiding feeling these feelings, we may unconsciously be doing ourselves more harm. A strong protective layer may help you continue with your daily life, but if the underlying heartbreak isn't addressed, this could eventually lead to chronic stress, burnout, low energy, self-doubt, anxiety and apathy to name a few. This could eventually leave you feeling stuck and perhaps lost.
You may have been advised by well meaning friends and family to simply "move on", "get over it", or "distract yourself with other things". Perhaps, you may be numbing yourself with porn, drugs/alcohol, social media, or sex. This may relieve some of the pain momentarily, but unfortunately, it doesn't address the root cause.
This ceremony offers a gentle space to do just that. It's a space where you can begin to soften the protective layers, and tend to your grief with the care, attention and softness it deserves. Using nothing but natural medicines such as presence, compassion, mindfulness, breath and music. For those interested in working with truffles, we could work with a microdose of 1-2 grams. Truffles are legal for consumption in the Netherlands.
How the medicine works:
The mindfulness helps keep us grounded and prepared for whatever needs to come up. It trains you to observe your thoughts, feelings, sensations without reaction, without clinging or running away from them.
The breath serves as an anchor, and a great tool for regulating the nervous system if it starts to feel overwhelming. It is a way for bringing you back to the safety of present moment.
Music and sounds reach places where words alone sometimes cannot. They go beyond the rational mind, and deep into experience. It can help connect with feelings and memories we may have buried long ago.
Truffles can help soften the defensive systems of the mind. Not push it aside, but rather, help the system relax and let go of control so that we may open up to new experiences.
Together, when held with care and respect, these natural medicines create a beautiful and powerful presence. It is through this presence that things can begin to naturally unfold. Your inner system starts to trust you again. You can start letting go of the things that are no longer serving you, and release some of those burdens so that you may walk a little more lightness in your heart.
If this type of work resonates with you, please do not hesitate to reach out. There's no need for you to go through this alone. If you are using AI as your therapist, please realise that it is only a machine not capable of real empathy or compassion. I believe that real healing takes place in the presence of others. The need to be heard, seen and understood by another is a beautiful human experience. Big tech corporations don't believe so, or don't seem to care. So please, if you need someone, reach out. I would be happy to walk beside you, and guide you safely through this part of your journey.
With much love and warmth,
Noah
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